Monday, January 2, 2012

Bipolar SD love/hate relationship

I have been adjusting to SD for about a month now and here is what I have to say about it...It sucks yet its awesome at the same time (hence the bipolar posts and blogs).
Why does it suck? Simply because people here are mean. No Joke! I have never seen people so eager to judge, to act selfishly, and to not care about anyone. Don't get me wrong I have people in my life that are not like this at all. I purposefully surround myself with people who are not like this. The issue is that I go out into the world of SD and what happens is ridiculous. I get into an accident because someone doesn't take the time to look where they are going, I almost get into an accident again because someone wants to steal my parking spot (and they did, didn't feel like getting another dent in my car),  I get the stare down for 1. my volunteer shirt I got at the pride festival in Utah, 2. for looking stoned (FYI it is because when I don't feel well or am to tired my body tends to feel a little week). and 3. because I am talking hebrew with my mother, and while running and waving or doing a head nod to someone I get nothing or worse I get the WTF is she doing and the I don't want to reply head turn. Honestly for those of you who are acting ashamed because you do some of this stuff and I can list some people who I know read this blog that are guilty of multiple things, CHANGE! go out in the world meet someone who is completely opposite from you and realize that what you do in life is actually affecting those around you. For these reasons I am really really wanting to go back to Utah.
As I mentioned though there is awesomeness going on. First thing on that list is my amazing family. Although like most 22 year olds who need to move out they are sometimes annoying but what family isn't. I love them and they have done so much for me including cleaning out my room trying to make it dust free :) (FYI stitch is hiding in my car) and it's not just my parents and brother it is my second family (the other Rechts that I love so much, the bendetts who have been oh so supportive and helpful and just fun to hangout with at gram's house, the fraitags who I don't get to see very often but when I do life is great and the other family members (I have a HUGE LOVING family)). The second amazing thing in SD is the beach and weather that comes with it. the third is NO WINTER Inversion! fourth is my growing in a business that I love. Seriously the more I work at zen the more I gain in life. I went to work today thinking it would be a typical day. I was kind of wrong. I went into work and talk to Annette (my amazing boss), who asked me to come in more (not complaining, I am actually very happy about that) also talked about all about moving forward and all the positive that will be coming for the company and myself (uber excited). So I know eventually I will be ok with being back in So-cal. I just have to move to North County area where people are a little nicer and I will be close to work but this will be in time I am in no rush to move out of a home where I don't really need to do the dishes or laundry.
There are a few things I have to do here in SD to make it a little better. I have to find a good synagogue, I have to get a social life that consists more than just Adam and Bekka (I love you both dearly but that is just sad) and I need need need to get out of this missing Utah funk. I feel like Utah is a person and they passed away or something but thats not the case at all it is a place with friends that I am going to see soon and I can't wait for that!
Sometimes though it is great to get out. Which is why two things are going to occur soon (one sooner than the other). First a trip to LA (not really a break from SD) I am driving my mother to the airport so I figured I would find a nice spot to chill up there for a bit. anyone know a good place or want to meet up? the second thing occurs in the summer and is probably the most exciting thing ever! I am taking the little brother to Boston for college. He is going to Brandeis! My baby brother is going to be a college student soon. Yes, in my head there is a voice screaming. It's a mix of happiness for him, disbelief that my baby brother isn't really my baby brother anymore and a little sadness. I am going to miss him :(. It does give me an excuse to go see the red sox in action.
I know I have a lot more to say but I have to go to some school work and work work. FYI I recommend everyone go to zenenterprisesinc.com to get a cleanse and mention my name just to make me look good I would appreciate it.
FYI I am really excited for a certain birthday (not mine) I found this gift for someone and I know it has been way to long since I have given a gift for this one person but it is time and I finally found the perfect gift.
Till Next Time
Nicoly!

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