Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Epic mickey

Pretty great day today!! I went to gamestop traded in some games for epic mickey collectors edition it is an amazing game! After that I went to a nutritional store that they opened up by cowles mountain it's pretty awesome. The guy who opened up that one was telling me how he lost over 100 pounds and thats why he opened up the place. He's a great guy and that store has just about everything I need so I think I am going to go there more often.
The one negative of the day is the loss of an important piece of paper that I need for tomorrows pre surgery meeting hopefully that pops up somewhere tonight.
Right now I am at vine ripe for the first time since they made it a market place its so different! It's useful though, anytime I need good pita or any middle eastern food I know where to go.
Tomorrow night is channukah so you all have to stay tuned for that blog. It will be a fun one

Till next time
Nicoly
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Monday, November 29, 2010

LA

I went to LA with the mother and it was shockingly kind of fun. We went shopping for jewelry for her spa. I actually found something for myself. I got a chamsa necklace and bracelet and another braclelet that says change your thought change your world I figured after the past several months that this was a perfect bracelet to have.
Now this little bit is kind of a tip for real lifers out there. We went out to lunch at this persian restaurant actually really yummy. I had fish rice and israeli salad (tomatoes, cucumbers, lemon, evoo) now I stayed pretty clean except I had this issue of no matter how full I was I felt like my body was missing something after scarfing down to much israeli salad I drank a bottle of water.and felt ten times better. So before you scarf down to much food remember to drink water it does wonders.
I got to chat with a couple people from utah today which is great! It's almost like being there for a moment in time. Thanks for staying in contact with me.
The day is almost over and I only got thirty minutes of a work out in and to top that off I might be hanging out with bekka tonight so maybe I can add in another fifteen minutes in somewhere.
I am kind of running out od things to tell.you all so.. Till next time
Nicoly
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Sunday, November 28, 2010

Missing utah

Today was just painful. Not in a bad day kind of way but physically. I don't think.this surgeon realizes the amount of pain I am in. even walking this morning kind of hurt. At least I got somewhat of a workout in. I had a pretty lazy day other than that.i went to visit bekka at work, I have been working on my puzzle, reading my book, playing some brutal legend which actually is a fun game. I also started cleaning up my room. I got a lot of work to do. Tomorrow I shall finish. Honestly all I have been thinking about today is Utah. I miss it oh so much. I also miss working out. I am not talking about a little walk I have been doing that all week. I miss bootcamp! I miss being pushed beyond my limit and I absolutely miss running. I tryed working out hardcore all week but after ten minutes it just hurts.
On a fantastic note I saw Tangled! It was a great movie of course. Disney never fails it cheered me up big time. I should have seen it in utah with brad and katie but seeing it in sd with my little brother worked out pretty well.
5 more days till.surgery I can't wait much longer

Till next time
Nicole
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Friday, November 26, 2010

black friday

Today is the Day after thanksgiving and to most shoppers it is known as black friday. let me tell you a little secret about myself. I really am not a shopper. Last night my mom had a brilliant idea that we should wake up at 3 in the morning and go to macy's. After nearly 25 years of living hear she wanted to wake up for the first time for black friday. I had to come with. not that I said no in the first place I actually said yes. I thought it would be cool to experience it. I was a little wrong. you wait in semi-cold weather which means my mom was freezing the entire time then you are shoved into macy's by a croud of people who are trying to save a buck or two. NOw we chose macy's cause I got to get something nice for a wedding I am going to in a few weeks. which means we really should have just gone straight to the clothes but we didn't do that we went shoes first. My mom has a shoe addiction. so she had to and plus I do need shoes. anywho we found a cute (yes I said cute) pair of shoes for the wedding and some comfy michael cores slippers for a night of movies and hot cocoa. it took like an hour to actually get the shoes because there was like 100 other people trying to find shoes and somehow they had no shoes in my size. at this point I was just tired and bored and frustrated at the fact that that took way to long. We finally made it to the clothes. found some black pants that are nice. SIZE 10 by the way I was stocked about that! we couldn't find a top or really anything for the wedding so it was kind of a failure but I am sure we could find something later on in life. We couldn't end there though. my mom had to go to express to find these shirts that my mom has been eyeing for a while they were 40% off so my mom totally had to get them. there we also found another pair of jeans and a suit jacket for Adam. and finally the cold got to her so much that we had to bail out early.
the rest of the day was pretty chill it was more shopping but for stuff I actually like. I walked to Gamestop and back which is atleast two miles maybe more one way. At gamestop I got a huge deal! three used games and a reserved Epic Mickey for just 37 bucks. I love black friday deals that work to my advantage!
this is where my day gets pretty awesome! we went to Uncle Larry's house with the maman kids to see this amazing little mini disney show he made. it was amazing I do have a video but I do want to edit it because as awesome as my phone is the video still isn't that awesome. the show was spectacular. Larry is a genious and should be working for disney. he is truly the only person who loves disney more than I do. I look up to him all to much for that.
after was lunch with the mamans at Nicolosi's which I forgot how terrible it is. I tried so hard to stay clean and I think I did a pretty decent job but I could feel the oils from every dish around me there was so much! but thats chill it was a fun lunch and luckily I had a small breakfast.
finally the last thing I did today was go grocery shopping with Adam. it was fun we first went to costco where we spent way to much time at because we go through every isle wondering if we need anything and we found some pretty awesome books but I didn't get any cause I still need to finish the Genesis Secret which just gets more intense every chapter. after that we went to von's because I needed to get some pumpkin puree! for those of you who can guess what I would be doing with some pumpkin puree please do cause I am using it tomorrow morning. I am so excited can't wait! I also got a bunch of other healthy things so I can stay on the right path. I still plan on getting to my goal before I go back to Utah. If not that then just continue to lose weight. I have made myself a promise that I won't go back to what I was so healthy food stuffed in the fridge.
For dinner today I made a turkey salad. left over turkey with lettuce, tomato, cucumber, radish, spinach and this new dressing I found at windmill farms apparently there is no calories, no sugar, no fat nothing yet it doesn't taste bad but I don't know if I trust it. now since I don't really have a car so I can't run off to bekka's tonight I shall be going to bed early so goodnight to all.

Till next time
Nicole.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Thanksgiving!

Today is thanksgiving day. The history of thanksgiving is kind of lame but whats important is what thanksgiving has become. Right now I am sitting with my family after a day with my mom. Keep in mind that today was the most painful day physically. I honestly can barely stand straight but it has been a great day. At dinner right now I am at my grandma's house celebrating my first thanksgiving without my grandpa. It hasn't changed that much just less singing and a little less laughing but we are all still happy. Food wise I think I passed. I cut my calories properly and had turkey a bite of corn, mashed potatoes, sweet potato and pumpkin cake and a few pieces of melon. Just one bite of each. I gave my self a good b+. On thanksgiving day thats awesome. I still kind of wish I was with my real lifers but right now I can't complain about life.
I have told you that I will tell you what I am greatful for. First thing is my family thats obvious, the second is real life because I am now a size 11 (fyi I went shopping today). Mostly I am thankful for some great people I have met this summer. Without them I wouldn't have made the changes I have made. I wouldn't be as happy and open as I am now, I wouldn't be able to run a mile and I wouldn't want to buy a trx band or food scale and now I do (fyi chanukah list with some great running shoes). I still need two more things I am thankful for. I am thankful for being home. I know I planned on being in utah at this time but being home has ended up being good. Happy thanksgiving to all!!!

Till next time
Nicole
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Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Cowles mountain

Slept in till 6:30 today. I know its not that amazing to most but it is to me. After that I was at the spa all day. It wad fun not really productive though. At three I hiked up cowles mountain it was great made it to the top and all. Its no rock living room but it was amazing to do it. Just knowing that I couldnt 6 months ago really makes it that much better.I did feel way to dizzy afterwards but it was worth it. After that I went to banbu it was delicious but I am starting to get sick of eating out. I wanna start cooking but I havent gotten the chance to. All I want is some good pita pizza or that mexican rice bowl from the live the life book its been calling my name
I texted Jen today which made my day. Hearing how great her vacation is puts a smile on my face. I miss mama Jen and everyone in utah. Tomorrow is thanksgiving so I am definitly cant wait to write tomorrows blog on that.

Till next time
Nicole

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Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Ahhhhhh!!!!!!!

First full day back in sd! I went to the dr. got an appointment with this surgeon. Who said its no big deal so I can wait a week. Of course it was probably cause the guy still thinks I'm pregnant. Ya get this. My mom left the room and first thing he asks is are you sure your not pregnant. Well the answer is no absolutely not. For some reason he kept on asking. Little education for everyone... To be able to get pregnant you need to be sexually active with a guy. So I have no chance whatsoever of being pregnant. The guy was an idiot. Finally got the ultrasound results to him and it showed gallstones what a shocker. The guy still had to go on about me being pregnant. It was a little ridiculous not the greatest doctors appointment I have ever had. So now I have at least a week of pain to deal with. I honestly would have prefered staying in utah and feeling in pain there. On a good note I had lunch with dahlia bekka and my mommy. It was really nice! Lets talk about the mother. I dont wsnt to go shopping with you for one big reason I dont like shopping with you. I know I am sounding a little harsh but this is the thing recently you have wanted me to change even more than usual and I know why it is and I told myself I am ready to take this bs from you but I am not I have written this in an earlier blog and I dont think you got the message. I dont like shopping! I hate forever twenty onr and all the crap that you wear so dont try to get me to wear it. So I going to go shopping on my terms and if we do spend time together just stop and think to yourself why would my daughter regret this time we have and how can I stop myself from getting to that point. Honestly I am done being the person who understands and not the person that is understood.
I dont know if you got this or not but being home instead of in utah where I should be is not really working out.
Luckily I have a best friend who is amazing. With her now venting about everything. Tonight we are doing dinner and hookah.
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Monday, November 22, 2010

Going home.

I am at the airport waiting for my flight. I am going home. This morning I was at treehouse feeling sicker than ever waiting for dr. barnett to call or something. Finally jen texted him. He hadn't gotten the results yet so I figured i'd do what I can working out wise. In zumba I was doin pretty good when jen gavr me a little signal to come out so she can tell me whats up. Dr. barnett trxtrd her saying I got gallstones and need surgery. So I went to kimber got a flight at 440 said my goodbyes and now I am waiting for a delayed flight. It is now 505 and I am still waiting. OY!! Whrn I get home I will be with my family my best friend and my all time favorite doggy chili. I am a little pissed off that I am leaving early but it will be good!
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Saturday, November 20, 2010

Still not doing to good

# of the week is 2.2 lbs! Being crippled all week that was a much needed weightloss. It is proof that diet is at least 80% of loosing weight and staying fit. Today sick wise is definitely worse. Funny thing is I woke up feeling fine but after a half hour or so it came back with a vengence. Along with the sharp shooting pain I have been feeling dizzy all day. To top that off I feel like throwing up everytime I eat yet I am always hungry for some odd reason.
It still was a good day. I hung out with kimber at gateway and I got a nice ego boost at buckle. Trying on jeans that are to big is awesome.
I got a lovely phone call from the ICNIC (my mommy) who is awesome but she asked me if I wanted to come home. Honestly thats the one thing about not feeling well that really scares me. I don't want to give up quite yet. I still got somw fight in me and the day I lose the fight is the day I will go home with a little bit of shame. Not that going home early will be to bad. Chanukah with the family would be awesome. I just know that I wouldn't be ok with myself if I left early.
Now I am at a japanese steakhouse trying to stay clean. I think I chose wisely. After dinner I am going to see the new harry potter. I hope its good. After I plan on resting for the rest of the weekend. Got to eat so..
Till next time
Nicole
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Friday, November 19, 2010

Pain and shopping

So still in pain. I went to get the ultrasound done and now I have to wait for the results. I honestly dont know how long I can last. I am trying to be positive but I really cant take this pain. Its not even the pain thats unbarable its the fact that I cant breath when I workout even if its a light walk on the tread or the fact that everytime I eat I have to force the food to stay down. I am hoping it gets better with a little extra sleep tomorrow morning.
Today has been pretty sucky. But I did get to go to the mall with everyone.
I am trying to find gifts for the family for the holidays. If you have any requests please ask. I am a little lost at tgis point. It was good for me to go. It got a little scary for a split second but a snack and some time in barnes and nobles actually helped.
Fyi kimber cracks me up. It cheered me up being in her office.
I am going to sleep tonight so..
Till next time
Nicole
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Thursday, November 18, 2010

A little scared.

Let me go back in time just a few weeks. When I came back to utah. When I got back on the tread for the first time. It was fabulous I could do a whole lot more cardio and not feel like death. Go fifteen minutes into the perfect run on the tread and my opinion changes my smile drops for a split second and word pops into my head that I wont put on this blog considering I love my utahns to much to do that. Luckily it was only for a split second. I lowered the speed started walking and this pain went away. Now come to a few weeks later where my water in take is just a bottle a day ( I know its a shocker but it just happened for some reason), the pain comes back. This time around its not going away. Of course I got to tell Jen that its been going on for a while. I still think she is a little upset about me bringing it up a little later than I should have and that I havent been drinking water. So we talked to nurse rachelle ( who by the way I really miss) and we all agreed that it was dehydration. Now come to a week latet and I still got the pain feeling a little oozy and delusional so of course I got to tell Jen. Who had to text dr. barnett. So all day I am feeling out of it and in pain waiting till 330 this afternoon when I went to see him. All I got out of him was I have to go get ultrasound done. I am going tomorrow at 8:00 and yes will tell you all what happens. Now I cant workout much which sucks cause I want to do ab lab right now but instead I am doing nothing. Hopefully tomorrow I get good news and I can workout. If not might have to go back to sd a little early. I hope not. That is the last resort and I am hoping, praying that that is not the case. I am hoping it is just cause I have been working out to much. Anyways that has consumed my day.
So now I go back to what we talked about in group last night and I am thinking of 5 things I am greatful for. 1. Jen of course. I will say it a hundred times she is amazing. No one has helped me more than her the past few weeks.
2. Gamestop! I know I am a nerd but I got adams chanukah/birthday gift over there and it was a good distraction from everything
3. Books. I would be bored to death today if I couldnt read a book while walking on the tread.
4. Being in utah. Being here with the awesome cold weather, the awesome people and the terrible road construction really has been awesome.
5. Is this blog. Writing is theraputic. I may not be the greatest writer grammatically but I love to do it and to top it off I get to share whats going on with you all.
I really do like doing this 5 things I am greatful for. It might actually occur more often.
On to a small workout and thrn sleep.

Till next time
Nicole.
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Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Going home gratitude and going back to the old game plan

Todays day was good. Did bootcamp cardio read this awesome book. I also did spin which was fun and intervals with michele which was hard but good. Afterwards I went to costco and gamestop for a much needed outing. I realized a few things today the first is I really am terrified of going home. Why am I scared? Well for one thing I have holidays,a birthday, a wedding, and a trip to vegas which all scream food relapse. I know I can survive it but there is always that fear of failure, another reason is well not something I am going to get into on this lovely public blog of mine. I am trying to think of the positives of going home and thats helping. I get to see bekka and chili pepper, licorice and puma when I get home. I get to celebrate many great things next month and it will be really good for me to be home in january.
Second thing I realized was in group today. We talked about gratitude. I am so thankful for being here and being upset at little things has clouded that. I do get a little overly stubborn about things. Its the one thing about myself that I love but sometimes I got to step away from it a little bit. I will tell you what I am thankful for when thanksgiving comes around that is way to long of a list right now.
The third and final is that I got to set my goals. The only way I know to succeed in life is if I have a purpose to succeed. I put all my goals that I had last time I was here on the backburner which hasnt helped me. Tonight I figured I need some goals but I honestly didnt know what they should be. Then I remembered these goals that I had and working so hard to get to them so I will go back to that.
Those are my three revalations of the day.
Inbetween I got some help from both Jens. I got this awesome quote that really put a smile on my face tonight from treehouse Jen. And well mama Jen is always an inspiration to me. I truly dont what I do without her here. Even her lectures make my day a little better.
So tomorrow is a new day with a new/old plan.

Till next time
Nicole
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Tuesday, November 16, 2010

I really am trying to be nice.

Today was a mental fight. I got to keep going but well if you read my last blog thats been on mind And to top it off I am really trying to be nice but ever since darren left it is not the same. I am really missing him it was nice having someone here that actually cared.
Today honestly wasnt as bad as e expected it to be. I did a whole lot of cardio my own core workout and I got to hang out woth michele on the eliptical. I also got to check out this health food store that eas kind of cool. Right now I am going yo broadview to see if I can finally register for my classes I will tell you all how it goes via facebook.
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Monday, November 15, 2010

Change.

Well today was a half day. I am not talking in a sense of I only worked out for half a day but in the sense of I had half a great day and half a mediocre day. I woke up awake and happy kicked butt in bootcamp, did cardio for hours and did pretty decent in intervals. After that it was just a crash after lunch as I was walking to the locker rooms from upstairs my knees gave out. They both kind of hurt a lot. Luckily the chiropractor helped a little bit but it still hurts a whole lot. I tried to do more cardio tonight and it just didnt work. I got a mental break from the pain in bowling it wad fun. I got a turkey! Not really but brad showed me how to change my score. I would talk about dinner but marky wasnt there to make me someyhing yummy. Its wierd how I rely on people so much. I can only do pt with certain people I can only eat the food if its cooked by specific people or go hiking with a certain person. I have had this issue with everything in my life and I have come to figure out the reasoning to it. There are actually a few reasons. 1. Is cause I really do find it yo be slightly sentimental. 2. Is cause I am not gonna have an experience that is any worse than what I experienced. If I have had better food or a great pt why would I go any lower than that and settle. 3. I hate change especially if it doesnt change for the better!
I understand that change in life is needed and I will accept it and learn to live with it and even love it if its good. When its not good why should I accept it. Why should I except not being able to do pt with my favorite trainer or accept the fact that people are leaving me. Oddly enough I hate when I have to change.
I have been changing this entire time and I am still debating on if I like it. I love the fact that I am working out more and wanting to do more with my life and I lovr that I am more open with people but I hate the fact that all these changes keep me away from what I have loved and still love. I hate that me changing is an expectation of me doing what others expected of me just cause my weight has changed. I hate the fact that the only changes that certain people see in my life are the ones that they wanted to begin with. So let me lay out the ground rules of who I still am... I am Nicole Recht! I am a jewish girl from san diego with the greatest craziest best friend that will never change. I lovr sports and working out that also wont change. I dont like shopping or stupid little fads that people come up with that are just down right stupid. I love disney and video games always and forever. I will always even in time of pain try to keep a smile on my face and when I am mad I will do something stupid like cuss out seth or write this blog. Most importantly I love my family no matter how much we fight or how much I hide from them. To come to a simple reasoning for writing all of this... For the past month I have been told by people in variuos places I my life that I have changed. Some in fact to most it is the changes that I want them to notice. I havent changed who I am just how I live life. Some people dont see that they just see the changes they want to see and aknowledge those changed when ib reality those are the changed I didnt want to happen. Ok its mostly just one person but I dont wanna name names. Fyi I thinl about this all the time if you havent noticed by the ridiculously confusing blog.
I think.i am going to try to stop confusing you so...
Until next time
Nicole
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Saturday, November 13, 2010

weigh in and Disney on ice.

First thing on a saturday like this is the number of the day which is 2.7 pounds! This is why I love working out here it pays off. As awesome as that is the bummer of the day is that rachelle left. She was awesome. Kicked butt in bootcamp every morning while talking smack the entire time. I don't know who is going to be able to replace someone that hilariously awesome.
I have to give a shout out. Usually I kind of just right people in to the story of the day but I forget some people. Melissa reminded me to get her in my blog today so thats what I am doing. For those of you who don't know who melissa is.. She's a crazy trainer at treehouse who teaches us real lifers kickboxing and survival of the fittest.
When I got to the house I got to cook up a delicious lunch while everyone watched the utes get slammed once again. I am starting to doubt my new found love for them but I will try to keep having some faith in them.
At the moment I am at the mall looking for some new clothes but honestly not in the mood to find anything. After this I am going to go see Disney on Ice. I know you can't see my facial expression right now but I have the biggest grin on my face right now. I so stocked! I am going with brad and hia girlfriend. I finally get to meet the girlfriend everyone else has except for me and now its my turn. I got to go now on account of I got to get to the greatest show ever. I shall tell you all how it goes.

Till next time
Nicole
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Friday, November 12, 2010

I dont know what to call this one.

Watching cop out at the moment with the real life gang for rachelle's last Night here. I really am gonna miss her. Today was great! Worked out like always reading the second book of diary of a wimpy kid which is good. At the chiropractor today shanna was there. It made being there a whole lot better. Went to the zoo amd it was great. Not as awesome as the first time but still really awesome. Fyi cop out is hilarious. I am still watching it. I can't stop laughing. I would quote it but considering that mt friends here in utah read this blog I will keep it to myself.
Today I learned two things I don't like. 1. Fern is being put to sleep. She was amazing dog. 2. I was reminded of the fact that I missed grandpa dave's unveiling. Heres what you need to know about him. He's not really my grandpa buy he sure acted like he was. The man taught me how to play basketball and always told me how proud he was of me, what more could I ask for. It has already been a year without him.
Luckily cop out is cheering me up. So I got to keep on warching.

Till next time.
Nicole.
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Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Goal changing

Today was a pretty chill day. Awesome bootcamp this mornig. Fyi that spot is mine I don't care what rachelle says. Went to spin which workedy butt off (literally) and then did a whole bunch more cardio. At lunch time I totally crashed on jen's workout. Sorry about that! After that went to barnes and noble which is my weekness I could live there. While I was there I really couldn't figure out why I just don't want to work out in the afternoons. I did the usual checklist. I asked myself if its cause I am tired then if I am sore or if something is on my mined and it really wasn't anything on the typical list. As the day went by I realized I was happy with just 5 hours of working out and that I need to start planning more outside of real life especially since I am going to live here and all. So I made a calendar with time to spare for time outside of the gym. Now I just got to figure out where to go in that time. Any good ideas? I do know tomorrow I am spending some of that time in kimber's office. I know it's not to far from the gym but she has been out of town this past week and I want the juicy details of the trip.
One more thing. I have three And a half weeks left with real life. It has gone to fast! I do get to see bekka soon!! Three and a half weeks till I get to hang out with my bestest friend!

Till next time
Nicole
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Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Weirdness I can't explain

Today was weird and sad. To start of I did the usual. Fyi for breakfast I tried the pumpkin spice shake. It was oh so yummy. The usual on a tuesday consist of zumba and I was surprised to see brenna come in. I was oh so happy to see her. Honestly your amazing brenna! After zumba I went to greg's class with Jen and then went for a walk with rachelle to starbucks. No I didn't get anything. It was funny to bumb into Adam and Sean on the way back.
I can try to explain what occurred at lunch but I really don't know how to without sounding crazy. Lets just say I have been feeling a little extra sensitive. I blame shanna and jen even though its their fault. I couldn't really work out after that so I just did a little school stuff until dinner. I also tried to sneak into shanna's office a few times but it kind of failed until after dinner but I was only in there for a few minutes. She kicked me out so I would workout. I did some cardio and kickboxing with melissa. Fyi her treehouse classes are a little harder than the real life classes. Now I am going to bed but before I do I have to tell you all that kimber is going to be back in less than two days!!! She has been gone way to long.

Till next time
Nicole
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Monday, November 8, 2010

A productive day

Today was fabulously busy. Jen did bootcamp today which is always a great start to the day. Did cardio with a broadview classes catalog then zumba with bobbi. I know it's not brenna but bobbi is just as awesome and plus brenna is kind of having a tough day. I love you brenna hope your doing ok.
Didnt much working out after that. I did do half of intervals but I had to run to broadview to discuss money and classes. Came back for some shanna time which was fun and the chiropractor which was weird he actually cracked me. Not my favorite thing in the world but it oddly enough did help. For those of yoy who don't know this I really hate cracking. A little secret of the day is that I did tear up a little when he got to the neck. I also did a little extra zumba and some extra arms since I'm really not doing pt anymore. Now sleep so...
Till next time
Nicole
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Sunday, November 7, 2010

I think way to much but this time it may be a good thing.

went to church with Jen today. It was a great experience. Last time I went we only got to do the first hour because of pioneer Day and this time I went through the whole three hours and it was cool. I learned a lot and it reminded me of why I'm here. What that means is this. The first class was about sacrifice. We talked about sacrificing our treasures in life and this one guy said something close to we sacrifice oir treasure for a different treasure. As he was saying this I kept on thinking about the navy and how I gave that up. The past few weeks I have been sort of Confused and angry at myself for getting rid of this awesome dream of mine that I have had for so long. The more the conversation went on it came clear to me. I just had to sacrifice that dream for a new dream. To top that of I had to figure out why. Why would I have a dream to give it all away and it hit me that dream brought me to utah. I have gotten so muxh out of utah and now that I have gotten to here it's time to sacrifice it, move onto a new dream.
Now time to get to the second class. Before I get to what I learned here just know that this only occurred once in my life and I jumped right back up from it. The conversation was about paying attention to g-ds hand and when he helps. The first thing that popped into my head was Israel. Let me tell you all what happened in Israel and why I decided to come back home from that. I went through a whole lot in Israel I couldn't handle it one night I hit my lowest point. It was the typical image of scissors in hand wrist ready to go and as the scissors touched skin a sudden knock at the door. There was g-ds hand! i know it's sounds ridiculous especially coming from me but here me out. I really am not a complete believer in that I believe that g-d left us to have free will and what happens happens. For some reason though this was the first thought in my head. You are probably asking who was really knocking. Three friends of mine we were supposed to go out for a friends birthday and I forgot all about it. We went out bought some chocolate and on the way back there were sticks on the ground shaped like a smiley. Which is why I am obsessed with smileys by the way. After that and a couple weeks of screaming at my mother I decided it be time to go home.
Why am I telling you this now? 2 reasons to the question. First obvious one is those thoughts popping in my head. The second reason is that Cause of all this ridiculous weightloss and me not eating away all my emotions every ounce of feeling is coming back to me which fyi sucks. I think I have it under control now but I never really know here at real life. I do believe I am gwtring back to who I became here the first time. All of this ended with me chilling with jen and her boys for a little bit. It was a great productive day. Even with everything going on in my head.
Tomorrow the week starts again so till next time
Nicole
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Saturday, November 6, 2010

Weigh in, puzzles and people leaving

got to start with the weight loss of the week. I lost 1.7 pounds today. Thats lower than normal but considering that I have been sleepless and in pain this week I will take it. After a low weightloss I figured I'd do tabata. Tabata was epic. Forty minutes of high energy strength training. I am still feeling it. Got to do that more often. I have to go back to morning to tell you that I have finished the globe puzzle. I realized that it's a flawed puzzle which is probably Why who ever was working on it couldn't really finish it because of that reason. I started another puzzle wich will be fun it's a sea turtle. Going to dinner and a movie tonight which will be nice. Hanging out with everyone I realized that it is not the same without lili she left today and I didn't get to say bye. A little bummed about that. I am going to get ready for a fun night.

Till next time
Nicole
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Friday, November 5, 2010

People I miss and will miss


Today was good. I woke up just happy but that kind of got ruined by a sharp shooting pain in my back that kept me from breathing. It didn't completely ruiny day I got to do kickboxing in the morning and some of bootcamp. I went to the chiropractor which ended just being more fun than helpful. Shanna showed up and ended up On the roler bed next to me. I've said it before and I will say it again I always have a good laugh with shanna. After that it was just a bunch of goodbyes to some great people. Diane left today which is not cool. She was a hardcore when it came to working out. Lili is leaving tomorrow and she sang a wicked song shes amazing. Her voice is fantasmic! Went to boondocks played the arcade and laser tag which was fun. Mid laser tag I got this picture text from bekka with this picture of chili. I miss th dearly if I could have chilipepper in utah life would be perfect. About to go do some extra working out. Tomorrow is weigh in I need all the help I can get.
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Thursday, November 4, 2010

Forgetful

So I am on my way to an entrance exam for broadview university. I was supposed Be there at 4:00 and it is now 4:50. I feel like an idiot! I am a very forgetful person but when I forget about Things like a test at 4:00 it hits me hard. Luckily this place is awesome. I called straight away and they just told me to come at 5:00. I never had such a good day turn sour so quickly. Today was a great Workout. An hour and a half bootcamp led by Adam which was hardcore, zumba, cardio with a little sherlock holmes, kickboxing, and a little ab workout of my own and a little relaxing in the comfy chair in Shanna's office. I also hung out in the juice tree talking about religion. After that I went to target and around 4:22 I nearly ran out of the store about to steal some post its because I just remembered that I was supposed to be at broadview taking a test. Now I am at broadview waiting for a computer to open up. I am a little nervous. I guess I shall tell you all how it goes after the fact via facebook.

Till next time

Nicole
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Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Sleep

Educational blog for everyone...did you know that you JuJ really need 7.5 or 9 hours of sleep. Reasoning to that is REM. There are four stages of sleep. Stage one is that time when just about anything wakes you up and you are usually aware of your surroundings. Stage two and three really not that important for this blog but you can find all this info online. Stage four is probably the most important stage for is your deepest sleep it is where people sleep walk or have night terrors and all that good stuff if you have those issues. It is that sleep where nothing will wake you up. At the end of stage for you have REM sleep. Also known as dreams. Dreaming is very important. It prepares the brain for waking up. Now you go through all these stages in about 90 minutes. Obviously a full night sleep isn't 90 minutes. After stage four your body and mind take a few seconds to readjust. Usually this is when people wake up if they got to go to the bathroom or something.
Why am I giving you all this info on sleep? I have been having this issue of not sleeping. I fall asleep and wake up after a cycle of stages in a sweat due to realistic nightmares that should not be in my head. Now this makes getting back to sleep all to difficult. Which also makes getting 7.5 hours of sleep difficult. So now I have gone weeks without proper sleep and your mind plays tricks on you with a lack of sleep. Not sleeping is almost like a sugar rush. You have almost like a hyper active high for a little bit at times and then an epic crash. Usually that crash is just exhaution, but if you don't sleep long enough your mind adds more little tricks on you. Your emotions change with every high and.every crash. Soon your high becomes delusion and your crash becomes anger and eventually you just end up down right deppressed for no reason other than the fact that you can't sleep which gets you depressed about every little thing in life.
Why have I just told you all of this? This morning I got to treehouse did my thirty minute warm up and crashed on the couch wanting a nap when Jen came over and said hey. All I could think was well something I won't write on this blog because I love Jen to much to put it up. After that the day was good I just was pissed and sad the entire day. I was crying in bootcamp spin I got a second wind so I was delusional survival I was depressed and during the third class I just was done. I did do intervals but I wad pissed so I put my headphones in my ears and ran. After intervals and mushy pasta I just tried to sleep till three but everytime I would get close to stage two I would wake up. Instead of trying for another two hours I went to the grocery store for some education and realized I have done that way to much. It was fun and it was good to do something outside of the gym even though it's just across the steet. Fyi another symptom of sleep deprevation is rambling and I think I am doing that right now so my apologize.

Till next time
Nicole
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Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Mixed day.

The title says it all. It was a mixed day. It was a great morning with an amazing bootcamp a fabulous zumba and a nice walk around draper park. To top the greatness intervals were fantastical. I am starting to run more its awesome. Unfortunately right after the peak there was a drop. I found out that wednesdays pt will no longer be with michele. Lets get things straight michele is an amazing trainer. In my opinion she's the best at treehouse so whoever was moronic enough to think other wise is not ok with me at the moment. Second I gotta figure what to do with pt now because I am picky about who I pt with. Anywho after that I don't know why but I was pretty bummed out the rest of the day. I honestly don't know why its not like I'm not gonna see michele ever again she still works at treehouse and I practically live there. The day did get better when I went to broadview and wrote up my application to go to school there. It reminded me of my goals in life so now I am content and ready for a new day.
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